Thursday, January 12, 2012

Am I Reading The Wrong Signals?

I have this 'straight' friend that i met through another friend of mine that he was seeing. We were just friends but at times i wondered what his ual orientation was because he would comment ually on other men. I am openly gay and he knows this. A few weeks ago he went over seas for 10 days and txted me messages saying he missed me and he wished i was there etc etc... this all coming kind of out of the blue as i had never really heard from him in this way, the week prior i had been discussing gay ual experiences with a friend in front of him and i got the feeling he was intrigued.. He got back from overseas and stayed in my bed that first night and then again 3 nights later, nothing happened as i wasn't sure of the cirstances and i didn't want to lose a friend. The weeks after this we would talk constantly and he would come over and hang with me for hours and send me flirtatious messages, he would also get angry at me like a boyfriend. 2 weeks ago he got drunk and kissed me on the cheek heaps and told me he loved me i told him to go away, then proceeded to show me his and ask me if i liked it, this is when i started to wonder really what was up... I didn't want to confront him because he is a boys boy and he has said once before that he is straight... I don't know whether i believe him or just think he is telling himself this, however he is txting this girl in a friendly way but i think maybe he just takes comfort in hiding behind this because he desn't know what to do do about me.... He also gets jelous when i talk about my ex partners and makes comments like, o well ul go back to them or what were you thinking they were no good for you... I have tried to distance myself as best as possible but i worry that he cares to much about what other people think and he is influenced by is ego so i find it hard to go away to far... he is a great guy and i really enjoy him. Last week he txted me and told me to come up to his house one evening because everyone was out, so i told him i would, 5 mins later he txted me randomly again saying hurry up, i asked why and he said "because i am home alone and i miss ur gangsta ***'... I went there and then next thing you know his best chick mate (who is smitten with him) turns up from no where (he hadn't txt her) and stays the whole night then crawls into his bed to go to sleep, i think she has picked up that something is going on and doesn't like this so is tryna ruin this, but then she decided to stay again 2 nights later but only lives 10 minutes away and i just don't think he would go there because he is so adimint he won't... we have both been sneaking around about this together and txting and calling alot, i am frustrated because i have fallen for him but i am scared maybe i have just read the wrong signals (my gut tells me i haven't tho)... What should i do? Am i reading this all wrong?????

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